EvEry LittLe ThinG
Let me in
to see you in the morning light
to get me on and all along the tears they come
see all come
I want you to believe in life
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time..oooh
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times
lift me up
just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the Ground
see all come
I want you to believe in life
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time..oooh
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
Don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
salvation
will you find out who you are too late to change
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time..oooh
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I GET THE STRANGEST FEELING THAT YOU'VE GONE AWAY
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007 @2:12 AM
Indifference
I was reading Someone's blog recently when i came across the word Indifference: "Lack of emotion or interest." I feel that I am becoming someone with indifference now....Someone that has been cast away from everywhere and everything and I see myself becomin useless and emotionless... I feel so dead in what I do.....I used to be someone of life..someone of smiles and have a heart of Love... But now I see a Desert of death ....someone of Sadness and a Heart of Insanity.... I feel that I have nothin more to live for...not even for God...Wad i have learnt is now goin to be Wad i have learnt full stop...Not bout teachin bout wad i have learnt but bout wad i have learnt and it stays there cuz wadeva i have learnt will never reach the ears of others....
In my heart...I love God...I love Compassion..I love People who Loves me for who i am...but now...there is nothing I love...not even myself...I wonder to myself wad has happened to me or even my friends...is it that we are growing up that life has started to become more cruel and have taken its toll on us...Have we become so filled with pride more than we used to?.. I realised i have...I used to be insulted...be sniggered..be laughed at...and dun feel a single thing..but now the slightest comment about me makes my blood boil...to a point where i just want to fly away.
I have called out to God,Jesus but my prayers nvr seem to reach their ears of all the sins i bear....although it seems that God's blessings are new every morning..I feel blessed to know that i once knew him and he seems to be slipping away..the more i try to hold on to him...the further i stray...the more i tried to pray the more i got awry... How more can i keep myself in sanity?..i'm not too sure... talkin bout life values,principles,sayings,wisdom,knowledge... and comparin it to reality... I must say life's Ironic... I used to hate the word Hate...recently i have taken a liking for it...Hating Life and its jest...
Hides in my own room...slowly fading away......
Through the Dark by KT Tunstall
As I walk away
I look over my shoulder
To see what I'm leaving behind
Pieces of puzzles
And wishes on eyelashes fail
Oh, how do I show
All the love inside my heart?
For this is all new
And I'm feeling my way through the dark
I used to talk
With honest conviction
Of how I predicted my world
I'm gonna leave it to stargazers
Tell me what your telescope says
Oh, what is in store for me now?
It's coming apart
I know that its true
Cos I'm feeling my way through the dark
Trying to find a light on somewhere
Trying to find a light on somewhere
I'm finding I'm falling
in love with the dark over here
Oh, what do I know, I don't care
Where I start
For my troubles are few
As I'm feeling my way through the dark
Through the dark
I'm feeling my way through the dark
Left Silently
Heaven Is where i Wanna be
Friday, August 17, 2007 @1:56 AM
Take Me Away
Here I am Sitting in the darkness letting it sip my life away...Looking back on how close I once was to u my god....everything u are was everything i want..now i just stand beaten..smashed..squished to nearly nothing..engulfed in my own demise ..I lose hope in everything.... hold on to me my lord...i need u...
Feel that life has no more meaning....can't lie to myself to say that i dun wish to die ...die to the world...die in the physical form and receive eternal rest in hell...
Find Me Here..Speak To Me..I want to feel you...I need to hear you..You are the light...That's leading me..To the place where I find peace again(from lifehouse - everything)...I wander around daily in my mind endlessly searching for solutions..searchin for a deeper purpose but now its been crushed by a tragedy of a place without trust without hope without freedom without sympathy without feelings...A place where cruelty and rules get repeated over and over till our own destinies that were designed specially for us get taken away by mere foolish human wisdom...i want to reach out for your wisdom my god...FiLL my life again. i need u...
Friends dun mean a thing to me now...they are happy plastic people...except for certain individuals...people with a heart of gold and ornaments of strength and comfort..for those who I love so dearly in my heart..u always remain my heaven on earth...moments captured where god is alive. The world is void of feelings.....goodbye my lovers....Kenji is no more...I wun't say i am happy now....dun try to comfort or tell me that life's great cuz i just received hell on earth...recovery is not possible...die to the world christ said and take up your cross...here i come to the world then dyin to it...which means those in my heart stay there forever. The rest of u...dun even think of gettin in...Lookin for a higher alternative to living now...ironic ehz...well life's ironic...get that...the once perfect world i knew is no more as i grew up.
Take Me Away - lifehouse
this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let
me stay here alone
this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
Left Silently
Heaven Is where i Wanna be
Tuesday, August 14, 2007 @1:59 PM
Unsaid
Not been Blogging for a while....Find it very hard to blog unless u got a feeling to...hahaz...tt's what i feel...Still looking for the right concoction for the problems of my world..which probably fall the same to the rest of the world...Problems like school,family, and esp ministry...Wad makes a perfect ministry? I can't seem to get the right people to do ministry work...facing up to incapable people but i have to live with it.
It's been hard to bear when u know putting a face to encourage people who ain't really effective. Affirmation VS Hypocrisy they say... Things always are left unsaid and Nothing Gets Done. Passing Each day with Hope Diminishing..Wonders if the love of Jesus could make me Stay...Feel The Silence of Noise..The Contradictory facts of everything.To Love To Hate To Long To wish To Hope To Understand To seek To Break Too many things boggle our minds....thinking somehow life could be a lie.. To somehow think that things aren't clear. On a distant planet...I lay down with hands cupping my ears and face down. SILENCE is all thats engulfs.Maybe we're better off this way
Unsaid
Not that you're the one
Not to say I'm right
Not to say today
And not to say a thing tonight
But suffice it to say
We're leaving things unsaid
We sing ourselves to sleep
Watching the day lie down instead
And we are leaving some things unsaid
And we are breathing deeper instead
We're both pretty sure
Neither one can tell
We seem difficult
What we got is hard as hell
A hundred thousand words could not quite explain
So I walk you to your car And we can talk it out in the rain
And we are leaving some things unsaid
And we are breathing deeper instead
And we are leaving some things unsaid
I can sing myself to sleep
No more
Not that you're the one
Not to say I'm right
Not to say today
And not to say a thing tonight
Left Silently
Heaven Is where i Wanna be